Why do I choose to be on the outside? Recently I had the opportunity to make some headway and bond with some of my future family members and I didn’t. Why did I remove myself from the fun? I told myself that it was because of my competitive nature and that I wouldn’t enjoy it if others didn’t take it seriously or play by the rules. I see this happen in simple things when I am...
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Pause is something that comes between stimuli and response. In my past I used to react to things on an emotional and instinctual level. After a while in my program and working my steps I have noticed that the pause turns my reaction into a response. In my past a reaction usually seemed to make the situation worse. In contrast, I find the response a more calculated and less hurtful way of...
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Four years later life is very different As I look back on the last four years of my writings I can see that I have a very different approach to life. I have a hard time noticing the tough times. I know that there have been some yet I just can’t really seem to remember them. I do know that when I find myself in the midst of a tough situation that I am able to get my “self” out...
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I came to realize that the reason I do these things is generally to help. I also noticed that about half of the time it is not received in the way I meant it. I also notice that I too get a little angered when someone does this to me.
Read MoreToday I find that I am actually living a life that I am proud of and see a future full of joy and freedom. Freedom from the nightmares of fear that haunted my every hour. Freedom from the burdens of guilt and remorse…
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