Being Present in Death When I was 21 my Great-Grandmother passed away. We all new it was coming. My mother and younger brother moved in with her to help her die in peace at home. They had a very long commute everyday to and from her house so moving in with her seemed like the best option. They were there with her almost round the clock to make sure that she was comfortable and was being taken...
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Sometimes I Stay Away out of Fear. I ran into an old friend today. I have nothing but fond memories with him. We watched our kids grow up and play soccer together for a few years. We shared road trips all over the state and some of the neighboring ones for games and tournaments. The time of my life that I was involved with this group of people was a time in my life when I was struggling pretty...
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Why do I choose to be on the outside? Recently I had the opportunity to make some headway and bond with some of my future family members and I didn’t. Why did I remove myself from the fun? I told myself that it was because of my competitive nature and that I wouldn’t enjoy it if others didn’t take it seriously or play by the rules. I see this happen in simple things when I am...
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Pause is something that comes between stimuli and response. In my past I used to react to things on an emotional and instinctual level. After a while in my program and working my steps I have noticed that the pause turns my reaction into a response. In my past a reaction usually seemed to make the situation worse. In contrast, I find the response a more calculated and less hurtful way of...
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I came to realize that the reason I do these things is generally to help. I also noticed that about half of the time it is not received in the way I meant it. I also notice that I too get a little angered when someone does this to me.
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